You'll find it in the deepest friendship, the kind you cherish all your life

Obligations, Expectations and Disapointment. Three things that are taking my mind for a run lately. I'm so tired of these three things. I have been wondering if these three things have made me fake. When I am here at camp...I feel like a completely new person. The people here don't know that I liked "so and so" for a time being or that I had a fight with that person 3 years ago and neither of us can seem to move past it. It's great to have new people to start fresh with but at the same time, I am aching for my friends at home. My friends who know all my peeves and history. I'm a little homesick this week...how about you?

A New Day...

Back at Athabasca now...ended up home for a total of 4 days which was perfectly fine with me. Travelled across the great nation with Joel and Adam for 4 days which was fun and landed with Katie in Lethbridge for a couple of nights. Bill picked me up in Calgary and we had a great night in Edmonton with a great couple of friends of his. Yesterday was spent retrieving Bertha from the airport and taking the always pleasant bus ride back to the home which is 49km's North of Ft. Mac. We opened a case of beer last night and bitched and laughed for hours, it's nice to be back. I am approaching this new year with such high hopes. I feel that since I left home I have become a different more honest person. I feel that I have matured and come in to my own. I have great plans for the year like travels and building a base for myself. I cannot wait to see what this year brings. And now to join the club

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?: moved to Alberta
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make ore for next year?: I don't usually make resolutions for myself so no.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?: my cousin had beautiful little Maya and I just found out that my dear Kellyanne and Craig are due in August.
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope...thank goodness.
5. What countries did you visit? United States
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?: A home...a new plan.
7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? August 25th...the day I moved to Alberta. There's bad ones but I am not going to focus on them.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Moving across the country.
9. What was your biggest failure? Probably giving in to something that I really didn't want to.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Broken leg to start off 2006.
11. What was the best thing you bought? A plane ticket.
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? Wow...my Tasha who showed great strength and bravery. Everyone who moved away, leaving behind the dreams at home and starting to live them. My brother who is amazingly generous and kind. My parents for pure understanding.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? They know who they are and I still hold hope for us all.
14. Where did most of your money go? HA. Bills, booze, 'berta (as in Alberta).
16. What song will always remind you of 2006? Sexy Back....we're totally bringing it.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:a) happier or sadder? happier, I can walk!b) thinner or fatter? yikes...probably larger. c) richer or poorer? richer happily!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?? Been happy.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? being unhappy.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? It's over but I spent it in Edmonton with a couple from work who were so kind to put me up and then Christmas day in the airport!
22. Did you fall in love in 2006? Nope, in lust a few times but no keepers.
23. How many one-night stands? hmm...next question.
24. What was your favorite TV program? Grey's Anatomy and Entourage and Gilmore Girls
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Hate is a strong word but there is people that I am really disapointed in..to me that is worse.
26. What was the best book you read? Good In Bed...it was a good book.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? hmm...nothing new...I do love the Timberlake again.
28.What did you want and get? Guitar Hero
29. What did you want and not get? No idea.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? I can't think of "favorites" but I really liked Ricky Bobby ("shake and bake"), The Last Kiss was depressing but great, enjoyed DaVinci Code.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? My great friends threw me a surprise party a week before which was great and then Breck and I shared a birthday bash at his place where unfortunately Tasha blew the party by shattering her elbow, just kidding love!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? A little more love.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? hmmm...I had some business casual going on...a little hippie ish at times. Comfort with style!
34. What kept you sane? Socializing
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Mr Damon of course.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Being here in camp the Saddam Hussein trial was huge news and then before that, probably the whole congressman (Mark something) who was sleeping with his intern.
37. Who did you miss? My family...Tasha...the group...Sarah...Katie...many.
38. Who was the best new person you met? The Athabasca front desk news team as we are called...Bill, Bertha, Ashlee, Aly, Dave, Alissia.....Danaca from Banff.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: I am ok by myself. I don't need the security blankets at all times that are my friends.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your inhibitions Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten" which is Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield and I heard it as I was leaving the Island for Alberta.

You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye, But never is a promise, and you cant afford to lie

I'm tired. I'm tired emotionally and physically. I have been late for work a record 3 times this week. I'm talking like 2-3-4 hours late. I sleep through my alarm and it sucks. It may be Christmas in 5 days but it really doesn't feel like it. I just can't wait to sleep. YAY FOR SLEEP.

So I'm also obsessed with facebook. I was vowing not to join then I accidentally accepted an invite and then I was hooked. Friends are cool.

You'll have to excuse me, I'm not at my best...

(Drunk me in Jon's bathroom)

Well, today on this fine Saturday morning...I find myself NOT in a Tundra but at home, my parents home....in Prince Edward Island. I have been home since Tuesday as a surprise to my momma and poppa. I think they liked it. I hope my friends have enjoyed my presence as well. It's a weird feeling to be home. I love everyone here and love that it's still home but I find myself a little homesick for the wild west. Ah well...that's growing up. Home isn't as homey as it once was, it becomes someone elses home that you visit. I'm not saying that Alberta is home...but I"m set up there and I miss my room and my "other friends" as Tasha puts it. I'm sure the reason Alberta is so homey to me right now is because I have pictures of all my Island friends faces all over my wall....not in a stalker like way but they are my not only my friends but my family way. Thanks for welcoming me home with open arms and booze bottles...

(UPDATE)
I recieved my early Christmas present from my brother when I got home and I just recieved my HIGHEST SCORE EVER...I'm proud.

I climbed a mountain and I turned around...

1. What are your siblings middle names? Lawrence
2. Where is your dad right now? Last I heard, reffing hockey.
3. What was the last thing you said? "he's been crying"
4. What is something you've learned about yourself recently? I really hate eggplant lasagna
5. What color is your watch? my cell phone from which I tell time is pink
6. What do you think of when you think of Australia? I think it's hot....and my co-worker is from there.
7. When was the last time you squatted to pee? It's been a long time
8. Who is the last person you liked? I liked...the English boy.
9. Are you close to your mom? Depends on the day. Haha. Just kidding, I think we're cool.
10. Where does your best friend work? The hospital, a school, sobeys, numerous places.
11. What is your least attractive feature? my spare tire.
12. How old were you when you started wearing a bra? Grade six I think.
13. What color are your pants? Black
14. Do you have a roommate? yeppers...Danaca
15. What color is your bedroom flooring? Fake wood color
16. Do you have a chair in your room? yeppers...an office chair
17. What time were you born? evening.
18. Do you know anyone who is engaged? Tasha's sister, my cousin, Katie...
19.What's your favorite number? 3
20. Do you know anyone named Laurie? I don't think so.
21. What color is your mom's hair? It used to be brown.
22. Do you have a dog? nope
23. Where did you live in 1987? Moncton NB
24. What happened to you in 1993? I turned double digits...the big 1-0.
25. Does your first memory involve your dad? I don't think so.
26. Do you remember singing any songs as kids? Have I ever stopped singing...doubtful.
27. When was the last time you went swimming? a month ago at west ed. mall.
28. Has your luggage ever gotten lost? Nope, knock on wood.
29. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings? i just talked to Jamie today.
30. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Brownie sleepaway camp.
31. Do you play an instrument? The violin
32. Have you ever thought it would be cool to smash a guitar? Kinda.
33. Do you like fire? Total Pyromaniac
34. Where is your best friend from? PEI and best friends in other countires (Scotland represent)
35. Are you allergic to anything? the cold.
36. When was the last time you cried? awhile.
37. What kind of shampoo do you use? Biolage
38. Have you ever been to a spa? no idea.
39. Were you popular in high school? I kinda think i was social.
40. Did you take science all four years of high school? uh, high school was only 3 years. and hell no unless Redmond's classes counted as science. I was there to be social.
41. Do you like butterflies? I'm partial.
42. What is the last book you read? Cash by Johnny Cash
43. Do you like Coke or Pepsi more? I have coke moods and pepsi moods
44. What is one thing you miss about your past? freedom of being young.
45. Did you ever see the school nurse? Does the tap team count? Then yes.
46. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher? Absolutely. I didn't work on that handwriting for nothing.
47. What is one thing you've learned about your life recently? I like independance.
48. Are you jealous of anyone? Sure.
49. Is anyone jealous of you? Living in -30 below snowstorms and working 12 hours days for 21 days straight....who isn't jealous of that.
50. When was the last time you were in an elevator? about a month ago at my hotel.

2 days past eighteen...

hangovers at work lead to things like this

1. Things On My Desk: (work desk) puralator bag, empty cups, hickory sticks, cigarettes, paper, calculator, berta's pod, easy button, walkie talkie....junk as there is 3 of us working at it.
2. Things On The Table: (at home) pretzels, RRSP package, book, magazine, water bottle.
3. Things I Am Wearing: black sweater, black short pants, black and white earrings, black shoes
4. Things In My Bag: empty
5. Things That Were My Lunch: pepsi...i was drinking last night.
6. Things I Wish I Never Swallowed: the rum last night...it was fed to me.
7. Things I Have A Fondness For That You Might Not Know: the Canadian tire smell.
8. The Song I Wish Wasn't Stuck In My Head: Travellin' Soldier by the Dixie Chicks as I drunkenly tried to get harmony going last night...we did not succeed.

If my past is any sign of your future,you should be warned before I let you inside

1. FIRST NAME? Shannon.
2. ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? I am named for the River Shannon in Ireland.
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? hmm...I think when I fell skating at the Olympic Oval in Calgary...I thought I broke my arm. That was 2 weeks ago.
4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Yep...took years of doodling in class to accomplish that teacher like writing.
5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Hmm...Carribean Chicken from Superstore
6. KIDS : I don't have any today...but who knows about tommorow
7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDSWITH YOU? I think I'm a pretty cool person to be friends with but I guess I'm biased.
8. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR UNDERWEAR? hmm...no skivy monday too.
9.DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Just my blog.
10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? No, not for a long time.
11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Maybe, I saw it done a couple of weeks ago...looked like fun.
12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? I really like Vector still but here I've eaten so much Honey Nut Cheerios.
13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Usually not...it's a lot of effort to get there and I'm pretty lazy.
14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Hmm...sometimes. We've been lifting lots of weights here so maybe eventually. Strong mentally, I'm ok.
15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Mint chocolate chip hands down.
16. SHOE SIZE? 8 or 8 1/2
17. RED OR PINK? I have more pink then red and my phone is pink too.
18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? The tire that has formed in my midsection.
19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? EVERYONE! Family, Friends at home, Friends abroad...it can get lonely here.
20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? Agreed with Taryn...stupid question.
21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? Well I'm wearing a skirt cause I'm at work and black shoes and pantyhose
22. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Sunrise by Norah Jones
23. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Brick Red.
24. FAVORITE SMELL? Definetly boy smell, Canadian Tire, Fresh Baked Bread, Turkey cooking overnight
25. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My boss.
26. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? Smiles
27. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I like Taryn mighty fine.
28. FAVORITE DRINK? Spiced Rum and 7 in a tall glass with a lime.
29. FAVORITE SPORT? Hockey
30. EYE COLOR? Blue
31. HAT SIZE? big...i have a big head
32. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? I have in the past
33. FAVORITE FOOD? I like mexican food...yummy!
34. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIE THEATER? Running With Scissors
35. SUMMER OR WINTER? Summer
36. HUGS, KISSES OR BOTH? Hugs
37. FAVORITE DESSERT? Butterscotch Pudding
38. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? No one...
39. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Again...no one
40. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Cash by Johnny Cash
41. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? Good Will Hunting
42. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? Meet the Fockers and the Simpsons
43. FAVORITE SOUNDS? Great harmony
44. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles and the Stones
45. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? I suppose I can sing.
46. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? March 31st 1983, moncton new brunswick
47. THE ONE THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF? myvocal capabilities
48. WHO IS THE ONE PERSON THAT KNOWS YOU BETTER THAN ANYBODY? Tasha
49. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE WORD? Skint
50. THE ONE THING YOU WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO THOSE YOU ARE SENDING THIS TO? I miss yas all!!!! :)